In The Name
of Allah (God), Most Gracious, Most Merciful
...This day
have I perfected your religion for you, completed My favor upon you,
and have chosen for you Islam ( those who submit to God ) as your religion...
( Holy Qur'an, 5:3 )
The
Roman Catholic religion is a ritualistic, secular, and political faith. It is
dictated by the pope from the top own to the priests at the bottom. If a
Muslim were to walk into a Catholic church it would be like walking into a
different world. He would find row on row of pews where worshipers sit,
stained glass windows with perhaps scenes of the last supper or the messiah
carrying a cross and so on. On the front wall in all churches is the messiah
on a cross and below an altar where the priest delivers his Sunday sermon. In
some older churches you may even find magnificent statue figures of Jesus,
saints, Mary the mother of Jesus and so on. Church services are mainly
repetitive rituals, singing, and prayers to Jesus or Mary or God and sometimes
to saints. This is the type of world I lived and grew up in most of my life.
If you were to ask me why I converted to Islam my
answer would be endless. However, if you were to ask me what lead me to Islam
I would have to say, now looking back, that it was my first encounter reading
the Bible at the age of about ten. I used to sit bewildered reading the Bible
into a tape recorder. After I had finished, I would play the tape back in
hopes of grasping the meaning of what I had just read. No such luck. So on
Sundays I watched sermons on television, ordered free Bibles, and donated as
much as I could (which could not have been much for a boy of ten). I received
letters of gratitude and blessings and that made me feel good. This continued
for a year or so until finally I became too frustrated, lost, and
honestly bored with the whole thing. So in result I tucked the Bible
away in my dresser drawer. I would only refer to it occasionally throughout my
inquisitive childhood and teens. I accepted the fact that I would never truly
understand that Bible. That is, ironically, until later when I became Muslim.
Only then did I begin to gain a complete understanding of the Bible.
What had confused me reading the Bible then was the
contradiction between the book and what I had been taught all my life by
priests and religion teachers. I found that almost every aspect of my belief
was challenged or did not make sense at all upon referring to the Bible. The
very core of my faith, I had learned, was false. This brought me to the point
in my life where I was pessimistic and cynical toward religion. I mocked my
religion in my teens by going to church chewing gum and partially
participating in services. I would grunt at the mere mention of God or Jesus.
I did not know what I believed anymore. The only thing I was sure of was that
there was a God. What I did not realize then, that I realize now, is in all my
confusion and enlightenment starting from the age of ten would trigger my
quest for truth and finally lead me to the religion called Islam.
My first encounter with Muslim people was through
business dealings. Their warm and generous hospitality won my heart. Their
loyal remembrance of Allah (SWT) intrigued me in phrases like, ' Al Hamdu
Lilla ( Praise be to God)' or ' Inshallah ( God Willing) '. I have never come
upon people in a state of such strong faith forever uttering remembrance
of Allah (SWT). Their kindness, generosity, and compassionate nature, I would
discover later, were all part of being a Muslim. I wanted to be like them.
This is what attracts people in wonder to Islam. This is what attracted
me. I began to learn a little about Islam. The more I learned the more I
wanted to know. Before long I was studying Islam through books written by
Muslims and the Holy Qur'an. Not a soul knew, but maybe a select few, that I
was studying Islam nor did they know that I was remotely interested in it. I
did not wish any interference from Muslims and especially from my Christian
and Jewish friends. I knew that if anyone was going to guide and aid me
in my quest for truth it would be Allah (SWT).
As time past my knowledge expanded into realms of
truth unbeknown to me. Islam became a powerful force like a one ton magnet
drawing me closer and closer to it. What I discovered and the thought of
Allah (SWT) was the only thing on my mind during the day, as I drifted to
sleep, and the first though when I awoke. Islam appealed to my intellect as
well as my heart so my passion grew for it. I eventually learned Surat
Al-Ikhlas ( A chapter in the Holy Qur'an called Purity In Faith read
it here) and, although I was not yet Muslim, I began to teach myself
to pray using a book and reciting the only Surah I knew. I felt an
overwhelming need to prostrate in reverence to the All Mighty to ask for
forgiveness and guidance in the way that made most sense to me.
Shortly, thereafter, I departed on a holiday taking
the Qur'an with me. Four days later, alone in a foreign country, I became
seriously ill. I was bed stricken for a month each day loosing a pound. Facing
my mortality and in all my agony I remember pleading to Allah (SWT) not to let
me die incomplete. I had not yet converted but I knew in my heart I wanted to
be a Muslim. I was procrastinating trying to learn everything humanly
possible. I now believe that this was my ' wake up call ' from the Most
Merciful. That is to say that life is too short to put things off that you
want to do. You never know if tomorrow will ever come. Two weeks after my
return to Canada, Al Hamdu Lilla ( Praise be to God), I converted to Islam. Al
Hamdu Lilla (Praise be to God) I did not die before saying the Shahadah
(Bearing witness that there is only ONE God & Muhammad is His Messenger
and Servant). Allah (SWT) is ever so Merciful. He gives people many chances
and signs. The part that is difficult is not so much recognizing them but
acting on them with all your heart.
Islam is like a medicine. It changes deviant behavior
and soothes the sobbing soul. Islam is the religion of truth and the Qur'an
the guide for all aspects of life. The Qur'an gave me all the answers to my
questions. It alleviated my confusion and turned it into clarity and
understanding. Never did I know that there is a religion that is absolute
truth in its' purest form. If all mankind only realized that this truth is the
religion of Islam. I pray to Allah (SWT) to guide us and the non-Muslims to
the straight path. The path of all the Prophets of Allah including Abraham,
Noah, Moses, Jesus, and Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Them all). Ameen.
I bear
Witness that there is only One God, and I bear witness that Muhammad is His
Last and final messenger and servant.
Yusuf Ali
Bernier